Perfection and Immortality
For Zoroastrians ... this article is pure poetry in motion ... gather its words like a bouquet of flowers and hold them very close to your heart. When you do .. magic happens. Most men and women rarely allow their inner selves to be seen by the world .. but overcome them and see me bare my soul for your consumption. You are literally eating off my table d'hote .. but the price was fixed by me as just the one 99 dollars.
How do I begin to express this thought that continually keeps wanting to express itself through me. I often ask myself ...when I am not irreverent .. why is the world so .. why are my thoughts not in tune with the world .. where destruction seems more the norm than a saving of a life at all costs. Have we become so blasè as to accept another's demise and easily explain it away as 'it was their time to go' no matter that the age may have been 5 or 40 ... or is God sending out a clear message through me .. many things connected to God like religions are falling apart due to a lack of knowing. People are so sick ... but who can help them .. they are in charge of their own lives .. so only they themselves can save themselves ... I leave you as the final judge .. but I share how I have thought ... a complete contrarian in my way of seeing things.
I did not see God as an aloof entity high up somewhere ... however I have often pictured myself jumping on a trampoline ... reaching so high that I would go through a film of something to find God sitting like a king on a chair. I would just about manage to touch his feet before I began the downward spiral. When I questioned myself as to why that contact was so fleeting ... I simply changed my thinking ... for I did not like myself being sidelined after I had taken the time to jump to make contact. Surely I could be more kinder to myself ... so then I have seen myself sitting on a chair next to God when I became more bolder. This was a long time ago but I am always like a child child .. I am ready to scream and fight for what I want .. metaphorically speaking of course. I do not find footprints of anybody walking all over me .. I will simply not allow it .. and look down my long parsi nose at you dismissively ... for my thoughts belong to me .. and I have never felt threatened in my mind. Our true age is the opposite of our real age .. when I am 61 I am actually 16. This is how I allow myself to feel. When I know the physics for our lives is a renewal of every cell in my body every 4 years then you do the maths for your own self. Then if you still feel that 60/70/80 is a good age to die .. then all I can do is feel sorry for you. I will not waste any time in teaching you any further. God showed me a different picture through the kings of the Mahabharatha ... read what they share ... how long they lived ... is also how long you can too... and I lost my fear of death as something so far away in the distant future.
I don't know how to share this ... but when I wanted to experience my kundalini and my chakras .. I would simply tell myself .. you are a good person and I would take a deep breath and just accept in my mind that this experience was mine .. and it was. I have physically felt the 2 snakes climb up my back from my tail bone .. cross over when they reached my shoulder and nestle on my neck. My 3rd eye opened effortlessly without me doing anything to activate it but just understand the power of love without any question. I have not meditated or done anything but desired a connection to God in the purest way ... accepting everything even before it was given to me. Everyday finds me asking God for something or the other and everyday I receive something or the other ... so it is impossible for me to be able to share my everyday experiences here.
Sometimes when I receive something .. I have to think back and I remember that I had asked that from God .. but maybe a while back ! Why is asking bad .. for everytime I try to explain this principle to others .. they tell me .. we never ask God for anything .. we just thank him. They feel holier than me I guess when they say that ... a game of one upmanship without its true gifts. And I am left thinking ... gosh but I don't do that ... and I am always asking and asking .. don't get me wrong .. I do thank .. but only after I receive what I want.
I must then tell myself .. Roda .. all ways are your ways .. do what makes you feel good .. rather than what tries to make you feel guilty.God is only created in love and good thoughts .. no matter who they are for .. so why not myself as the first recipient ??? this way I can see the system as working in order to come from my own authenticity .... and all ways are a god's ways .. so never judge yourself.
I still do not pray many prayers but when I recite the ashem vohu and the yatha ahu vairyo it is with the deepest devotion I am capable of. I may sometimes have these prayers on my breath for sometime. I just tell myself ... it is only God who can see you in your innermost thoughts and when he sees how good you are there .. there is nothing more to prove .. even to myself. I chose simplicity as the way to connect ... most people get so lost in rituals .. must do this / must do that and I look at myself and see my perfect life ... and think ... I wonder with all their devotion to prayers .. why is their life not free of illnesses and other problems and I remember the times when doing the kusti I would tell God ... I don't know what I am saying through these words ... can I please talk to you in my own words ... and I would ... and those words spoken in love infinitely made me feel good. I understood our conversations and that was my only goal .. to think / speak / hear intelligence. Anything else soon made me lose interest.
So maybe you were not expecting to hear this from me or anyone ... but the truth is ... life has been complicated beyond a reason .. it makes no sense to ordinary good folks ... struggling to survive in this tough world of dog eat dog ... so much so as making people turn away ... from all that is truly good for them nevertheless. Pushing people into corners with punishments is hardly likely to make them feel holy or good. Yet all of us have that spark of light in us which can be lit in an instant in this moment ... doing away with the past when things may not have been as good as desired. To turn turtle / flip yourself .. like a coin .. if your tail was showing .. switch to the head ! That is one of the truest lessons ever spoken. Move the focus back to the head .. rather than the body.
The word hu man is self explanatory when you know that the sound HU is one of veneration ... in persian .. it is the sound God used to create. When God made the sound of creation ... hu ... man was created and it was called HU MAN. It is such a telling lesson for man to understand his humanness .. his goodness .. not belonging to another .. so wake up and listen .. don't carry on being dumb ... discover such stuff through your own mind. You will truly see the universe moving along side you .. as I do.
The word hu means good the word ashem I guess comes from asha .. truth. This is how I understand it through myself. I must then leave you with my own thinking on this. Truth by its very definition is above an analysis ... it just is .. so why has vohu been added to it. The good mind's truth ... now this one did zap me too when I understand it through my own mind. The answer is simple ... the good truth .. must work like clockwork (magic) every single time .. otherwise it cannot be quantified so. Righteousness is the word used to expand this prayer and it is justifiably so. Truth may be interpreted by many minds and we may come up with different interpretations but its inner beauty is ... because it is right ... it just is the way it is ... it must be accepted at face value without the hows and whys. Through the ashem vohu ( 12 words is how long this prayer is ) it has been shared ... go to God as a child does .. in total belief of truth. Even when circumstances in your body due to age or infirmities make it difficult for you to believe in cures and perfection ... it exists still as a possibility through the mind and the only way to receive this .. is by accepting this first before seeing the change.
My mind is my master .. my master is my mind.This is the first line of my new book on MasterMind in Verse. Anything first thought of in the mind is but an illusion ... something so ephemeral and nebulous as nothing ... nothingness ... yet so pulsating with possibilities that it feels like magic .. a miracle in the mind waiting to expand itself ... doing its all to bring you what ever you ask of it. Hold these thoughts in your mind .. it is your only power ... to trust in something you cannot and will not ever see .. but always feel as a part of you .. could that it be you and only you. Are their 2 yous ... or more ... it certainly seems so in the beginning .. you are now expected to revert back to being one. This is called consciousness ... the ability to experience the all as the one .. for the one is the all. Everything is created from matter made to vibrate at different speeds. I was able to communicate with my energy at its purest level ... understanding everything through my own mind ... I was given this piece of advice when I had sometimes doubted the veracity of what I would read. Now whenever I read anything .. my mind keeps opening up a different story and it is just so difficult for me to sound self righteous about what I say that I no longer correct anything I read. But that I know its truth is a much more amazing experience for my self. I have learnt to tell myself ... all things exist ... and I just walk on by.